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Real life Christian confession, Bible reading, study, and stuff

Real Christianity Confession Time:

I had a terrible week last week. I encountered some adverse conditions and I became petulant, grumpy, irritable, and self-pitying. I forewent Bible reading, rationalizing that I was too upset and couldn’t think just now. Of course, in adverse conditions, Bible reading is the first place one should go, not the last. But there you have it.

By the grace of God and the ministry of the Holy Spirit I recovered my equilibrium. I attended to some things I’d neglected the last week all day on Saturday, and on Sunday I devoted myself to church service, prayer, and small group fellowship. I’d promised the Lord that on Monday (today) I’d get back to it with a vengeance, since I was home from work on Thanksgiving break and had all the time in the world.

So by 11:00 this morning, I’d done-

10 chapters of Bible reading,
1 chapter read in Hidden Life of Prayer,
1 chapter read in Gerstner’s Theology in Dialogue,
1 chapter lesson completed in Jess Pickowicz’s Biblical Doctrine study,
Lecture 1 of Hebrews by Dr Abner Chou listened to, plus NT overview
4 pages of notes on legal pad

I am a Theology BEAST. Sadly, by a few days from now I know that I’ll be a theology wimp. I tend to slide. I start out good but slacken, then speed up and then slow down. Goodness, I totally understand Paul when he said,

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do. But what I hate, I do. (Romans 7:15).

O Lord, have mercy on this weak woman, and help me stay consistent in Bible reading and study!!

Here are some thoughts and insights gained by the Spirit during today’s studying bonanza.


rich young ruler verse
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And behold, a man came up to him, saying, “Teacher, what good deed must I do to have eternal life?” 17And he said to him, “Why do you ask me about what is good? There is only one who is good. If you would enter life, keep the commandments.” 18He said to him, “Which ones?” (Matthew 19:16-18a).

This made me laugh out loud. Which ones? Like we can pick and choose? Whether as Gill’s Expositions says, the Rich Young Ruler

Whether those commandments of a moral, or of a ceremonial kind; whether the commands of the written, or of the oral law; of God, or of the elders, or both; or whether he did not mean some new commandments of his own, which he delivered as a teacher sent from God:

or whether the Rich Young Ruler had the original ten laws in mind, asking “which ones” just shows how blind he was. No one can keep any of the laws perfectly their whole life. But the man confidently replied to Jesus’ answer as to ‘which laws’ that “all these I have kept”. Some believe that the Rich Young Ruler was indeed Saul of Tarsus. If he was, then the Lord’s mercy is great. If he wasn’t, I pray that mercy came to that young ruler sometime before his death, when eternity becomes fixed.


I do my daily Bible reading in the NKJV. The verse at Psalm 18:4 says,

The cords of death encompassed me, And the torrents of ungodliness terrified me.

Me too, David, me too.


The LORD lives, and blessed be my rock, and exalted be the God of my salvation— (Psalm 18:46).

A GREAT verse!


Job 18: man, this is rough, very rough, It’s not only rough because Bildad is heaping scorn on Job, and telling him to snap out of it, but Bildad is excruciating in his detailed list of what and how the wicked endure the coming punishment. Read Job 18 if you begin to lose your compassion for the lost.


For there are eunuchs who have been so from birth, and there are eunuchs who have been made eunuchs by men, and there are eunuchs who have made themselves eunuchs for the sake of the kingdom of heaven. Let the one who is able to receive this receive it. (Matthew 19:12)



Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12)

God is generous. We may only understand Him through His word, and we can only understand the word via His Spirit, but He has given to us His Spirit. Freely.


“You don’t want to just know the word of God. You want to know the God of the word.” Dr Abner Chou, The Master’s Seminary, Hebrews lecture #1.

Read the word to gain an understanding of who Jesus is, to commune with Him, to understand His revealed attributes, commands, precepts, and plans. Every time I let Bible reading go and then return to it, I am refreshed and wonder why I let it go in the first place. I am a silly person, stumbling and bumbling along. No doubt I’ll mourn my wastrel ways when I get to heaven and see the glories Jesus has set before us. All I can do now is try again. And again…


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5 thoughts on “Real life Christian confession, Bible reading, study, and stuff

  1. I had a “bad” day today and was ready to just eat food I’m not supposed to eat and go to bed. But this post lifted my spirits and reminded me that I need the Word. I’m off to read and study. Bless you!


  2. Yesterday was also a “bad” day for me. Too quickly I allowed circumstance to shatter my hope and joy; too quickly tears flowed when “I” couldn’t get past that issue. All I could seem to do was flail around in doubt and worry. “What if, what if, what if” entangled my thoughts. But as soon as a beloved friend in Christ emailed me the “truth” and reminded me of the abiding love of Christ for His redeemed with these words, “He gives us grace daily. Do not worry about tomorrow. And do not worry about your faith and sanctification. He wants us to be joyful!” and “Look to your Father who has loved you in eternity, look to Jesus who will not lose you and who prays for you, and look to the Spirit who can impart streams of peace and every heavenly blessing through Christ,” joy and peace returned.

    Every bit of her wise advice is in Scripture (I am so thankful for her loving faithfulness to me)! But sometimes all it takes to get us back into the joy of “truth” residing in Scripture is for beloved sisters-in-Christ to share their experiences; and we are pointed back into consistent study! Thank you Elizabeth and each of my sisters-in-Christ who have shared with me through this posting!

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  3. I have had thre same week! And I justified my lack of study and writing with the same thing: too upset to concentrate. Thanks for sharing. I hope I too regain my equilibrium. I have six days of daily bible reading to catch up on. 😔

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  4. YIKES!! I hit my own “liked” button by accident as I tried to reply to the “Liked by”–shows everyone how easily I lose my way with the keyboard (brain and fingers at a constant disconnect!). Anyhoo! I realized that my lack of JOY in the Lord and His lovely and enduring promises is my issue! That lack enabled laziness and fed my “self” when Scripture should have been the food that energized me and fed my spirit!

    Blessings dears as we consistently make all effort in mastering our “self!”

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