The Joy of Knowing the Lord

I was a craven sinner

a persistent sinner
a long-time sinner
a depraved sinner
a mocking sinner
an unrepentant sinner

and yet you, Most High God, condescended to enter this world of sin to save us. Lord, you broke my heart. You broke my heart of stone and gave me a heart of flesh, soft, beating in love for Abba and Your ways. (Ezekiel 11:19).

You are a Friend to Sinners, compassionate in all your paths, the beloved Groom. The Woman at the Well said, “Come, see a man who told me all that I ever did.” (John 4:29a). All I ever did was evil. (Genesis 6:5). And yet You loved me while I was still a sinner. (Romans 5:8)

You have set around me a sacred circle, outside of which are cares and burdens, worries and problems. Inside is your throne of peace, love, and Fatherly care. Let me always to come to You boldly humble, timorously brave, to the Father of Lights and the Ancient of Days. Inside this circle is all, because You are there.

I recall my worldly days outside the circle, wandering and unhappy, yet sinning all the more, never seeing your circle of color, the rainbow of covenant, as shining gloriously bright. (Revelation 4:3). My eyes were dim and blind. It is You, Lord Most High, Abba, who brought me in, washed me with Your blood, and saved me from the penalties of all my evil deeds. You gave me Your righteousness, a soft heart longing for purity, and a mind of transformation.

You gave me grace.

Spurgeon said:

The other evening I was riding home after a heavy day’s work. I felt very wearied, and sore depressed, when swiftly, and suddenly as a lightning flash, that text came to me, “MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR THEE.” (2 Cor. 12:9). I reached home and looked it up in the original, and at last it came to me in this way, “MY grace is sufficient for thee”; and I said, “I should think it is, Lord,” and burst our laughing! I never fully understood what the holy laughter of Abraham was until then. It seemed to make unbelief so absurd.

It was as though some little fish, being very thirsty, was troubled about drinking the river dry, and Father Thames [River, London] said, “Drink away, little fish, my stream is sufficient for thee.

Or, it seemed after the seven years of plenty, a mouse feared it might die of famine; and Joseph might say, “Cheer up, little mouse, my granaries are sufficient for thee.”

Again, I imagined a man away up yonder, in a lofty mountain, saying to himself, “I breathe so many cubic feet of air every year, I fear I shall exhaust the oxygen in the atmosphere,” but the earth might say, “Breathe away, O man, and fill the lungs ever, my atmosphere is sufficient for thee.”

Oh, brethren, be great believers! Little faith will bring your souls to heaven, but great faith will bring heaven to your souls!

Let this little fish never say, I have drunk enough.
Let this little mouse never say, I have eaten my fill.
Let this man never say, I do not need this air any more.

How foolish! Breathe deeply the Words of Life, for where else would I go? (John 6:68). I am in the circle of Your love and the days of wrath have ceased for me. Where else would I go? Let me not wander. This circle of grace is enough.

7 thoughts on “The Joy of Knowing the Lord

      1. Let me give a more complete answer than the last. When I got to the end of your article and saw the visual graphic, I forgot every word you had written. In today’s society, a graphic like that looks to be blasphemous, as to indicate that either the writer is gay or to insinuate that the Great I AM somehow approves of homosexuality. I was taken back by it.


  1. Hello Hope,

    Thank you for asking and thanks you also for not assuming. I really appreciate that. I have been taken aback by the Facebook statuses of supposed Christians turning profile pics to rainbow, the Orlando newspapers and other FL papers turning their front page banners into rainbows…I am sad that the gay lobby has appropriated the rainbow. I love the rainbow, and have re-read many times the verses describing it as covenant with man and as the adornment around the King on His throne as seen in Ezekiel. I created the picture to go along with the word picture I described as the circle of grace which He drew me into and the rainbow around his head, shining emerald and bright.I wrote the following on Twitter:

    Gay ppl, God had the rainbow since eternity. Ez1:28, Rev4:3, 10:1. He 1st showed it to man in Gen9:13.It’s not yours

    It is sad that the rainbow is so far gone that you had thought what you thought, which I can understand given that you are not a squirrel in my head and had no clue as to the context of what I have been thinking. My puny attempt to take back the rainbow did not work, I see. I don’t want it to become a stumbling block to anyone, so I’ll delete it. Thanks again Hope.


  2. You are so right in that such a beautiful thing has been so severely corrupted from it’s original message that God’s Promise to Noah no longer even enters our minds when we see the symbol. This is my very short post from yesterday that I thought you might like to see on the same subject. I’m glad I discovered your blog today and will be happy to “follow”. God bless…


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